Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Pour Your Heart Out - Motivation

It's Wednesday, which means it's time for Pour Your Heart Out, a blogaval hosted by the one and only Shell of Things I Can't Say. If you'd like to join in, just click here to get started!



I was a fat kid growing up. I mean really, I should have been featured on Maury or Montell or something. Okay, maybe I wasn't that fat, but still...my 4th grade class didn't call me "Big Mama" for nothing. Anyway, I basically ate what I wanted and drank sodas, loved candy bars, and my exercise/activity level was little to none. Seriously, I was a fat kid.

In the 7th grade, I got braces put on my teeth and suddenly the fat started to fall off of me. If you have ever had braces, you know why. I couldn't eat like a normal person. Sandwiches had to be broken into bite size pieces, Snicker Bars were off limits, and eating became more of a chore than a hobby. Seriously, it's hard work. Nevertheless, I started feeling pretty good about myself! I was getting thin(ner), and I wasn't really having to exercise to do so.

Since the 7th grade, I gained some and lost some. It was routine. Once I noticed the jeans were getting a little tight, I would back off on the food. It really wasn't hard at all.

But then I got pregnant...

I went into the hospital the night before I had Bree weighing in at 197 pounds. I came home wearing a size 14 in jeans. For a girl that's no more than five feet tall...that is not good (or healthy). Slowly, I dropped weight. I thought that cutting back on food, would help me get back to where I was in just a matter of months. HAH! I soon realized that going from a size 14 back to a size 6 was going to take a lot of work, and just cutting out certain foods wasn't going to do the trick.

That's when I began exercising.

Now, you have to realize what a big step this was for me. I HATED absolutely anything that had anything to do with exercising or physical activity. I had horrible gym teachers in school, who made gym anything but enjoyable for me. I had gym teachers call me "fat" and "lazy" and "useless"...and let me just tell you, by the time I got to the 7th grade, I had had it up to here with gym class. I failed my 7th grade gym class. That's right folks...FAILED! Not because I was that fat and lazy, but because I just refused to dress out (change into gym clothes) and participate. I had rather avoid the humiliation of being called names in front of my class, than to participate. I didn't really care either. Personality flaw? Maybe.

Anyway...

My crazy Mother In Law told me that I would never get back to my pre-pregnancy weight, and that I should be okay with what I looked like. I blame her for my obsession with getting thin & fit, because you do not tell me that I can't do something. You just don't. I will go over and beyond what you said I couldn't do. Losing weight, and getting fit went from being an obsession, to an addiction, to something that I had to do in order to get through a day.

Now, I am into Day 3 of p90x and I feel like I am on the home stretch of finally getting fit like I should be. I've never been more motivated in all of my life. I purchased p90x not just for myself, and the hubby...but for my Dad who struggles with his weight and my Mom with hers. I feel like if they see what p90x does for me, they'll be motivated to do it themselves. Currently, my Dad is going to the gym and trying to get healthy...but who wants to pay gym fees when you can do something like p90x right in your own home?

I'm excited about the possibilities of hopefully getting my entire family fit, and healthy. Well, with the exception of my little brother who let the Marine Corps put him in shape! I love feeling motivated, for good reasons. I'm motivated to get fit for myself, my hubby, and my family. I want to be healthy. I want to be around for a long time to come, and it's got to start now.

Are you motivated in your life? If not, find something to get motivated about; whether it be getting healthy, or cleaning your house. Sometimes all you need in your life is a little direction, and little motivation.





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19 comments:

Mommy Lisa said...

I wish I felt all motivated. I just feel frustrated.

purseblogger said...

P90X is the best!

Ian said...

197? Wow. Bless ya ;) Pics or it never happened

Brandy said...

way to go. keep it up. you can do it. and all that.

you are a stronger woman than me

singedwingangel said...

I wish I could find 197 again.. I think I lost it somewhere between last baby and perimenopause...

Melissa said...

Good for you Samantha! I was doing so well with my eating and exercising and then life got busy and upsetting and I "fell off the wagon." I REALLY need to get back on and get happy... because feeling the way I am at the present moment isn't all that great.

Good luck with p90x! You are going to rock it!!!

P.S. I was a chubby kid too... and it was not good. I felt so unattractive... although my chubby stage was probably a little older (during the 8th and 9th grade).

Shell said...

How AWFUL that those teachers would say that to you!

You do sound very motivated! Good luck with P90x. I so want it, but hopefully, we'll get it soon!

Thanks for linking up!

Julia said...

good luck!!

Sara said...

This was great! I'm the "fat kid" too... except now I'm grown, so it's a little more serious. But thanks to my Wii Fit trainer (Hans!) things are starting to look a little better. Thanks for the reminder to stay focused :)

Tylaine said...

I absolutely cannot believe a teacher who say those demeaning things to a child! Good for you that you're so motivated! Can you send some my way :)
P.S You look absolutely wonderful in that picture of your family! Way to go!
Glad I stopped by!

Salt said...

Congrats on getting started on P90X! I can't get over how amazing it is. I'm a regular gym going because I have a really hard time staying motivated to exercise at home, but I might have to bite the bullet and try this one.

I, too, have had a really hard time with my weight over the years.

Katherine said...

I'm borrowing P90X from a friend. Pick it up this weekend. I'm excited, but scared.

Yeah, I packed on a whopping 40 lbs during pregnancy. Just a little over the 30 lb limit, right?

It was hard getting it off and now it sucks trying to keep it off. Babies...what they do to us.

Aphrodite's Mortal Friend (ME) said...

I have always been a runner- as far as I am concerned, fitness is not an option- it is vital! I applaud you for finding the motivation ... and on days when you don't have it, do the exercise anyway- you'll always be glad after ;-)

The Girl Next Door Grows Up said...

I am. I am totally motivated when I get something into my head and nothing can stop me!

Good luck - you will do great!

Joe Cap said...

Yes, I try to be motivated! I work out 3 times a week. I hate getting up early to do it, but I feel so good when I am done...like I have accomplished something...

MrsDixon said...

It is sooo hard to be motivated to work out! But I'm sure you'll be there in no time! Great BloG!

Jana said...

Hi, Good to know that you are back. Hope you enjoyed your vacation. It was interesting to read about your roller coaster ride that is weight loss!

Honey B. said...

Such a good post! I've been really thinking about exercise and motivation, and what it takes...I'm still not sure yet, but keep us posted on p90x because I think it helps!! :-)

Honey B. said...

And I was a chubby kid too....so sad when I look back, and something I really don't want my own kids to go through... :-(